and so i really had to hurt myself over and over again.

hey yey yey, hey yey yey yey yey.
ohhhhh yey yey

its over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
and who is the one youre clinging to
instead of me tonight

bridge

and where are you now, now that i need you
tears on my pillow, whenever you go
cry me a river, that leads to your ocean
youll never see me fall apart
in the words of a broken heart

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chorus

its just emotions, taking me over
caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
and if you will come back
come home to me darlin
dont you know theres nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
goodnight, goodnight, goodnight

im now at your side, a part of all the things you are
but you never ???????
you gotta go find youre shining star

bridge

chorus

god i love this song.

and so i really had to hurt myself over and over again.

hey yey yey, hey yey yey yey yey.
ohhhhh yey yey

its over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
and who is the one youre clinging to
instead of me tonight

bridge

and where are you now, now that i need you
tears on my pillow, whenever you go
cry me a river, that leads to your ocean
youll never see me fall apart
in the words of a broken heart

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chorus

its just emotions, taking me over
caught up in sorrow, lost in the song
and if you will come back
come home to me darlin
dont you know theres nobody left in this world to hold me tight
nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
goodnight, goodnight, goodnight

im now at your side, a part of all the things you are
but you never ???????
you gotta go find youre shining star

bridge

chorus

god i love this song.

its been 5 day s that i havent heard from him. HOW COULD HE? why is it so easy not to call me ot text me or hear from me? does he still love me? or maybe he doesnt anymore. i wanna call him. txt him. let him know how i feel. but im scared that if i do, i might now realize even more that he doesnt care for me at all. thats why its better for me to shut up now. damn, im out of cigarettes again. i hope my brother will buy me some. im dished with thoughts. empty thoughts. my day passed me by.

 

what have i ever done to deserve this? to hurt this way?

where does the pain go after crying? does it evaporate just as my tears does? i wonder. why am i crying tonight if i knew the pain wouldnt go away? i love him. i miss him. but if cant love me back i cant force him to. i can only do this. write these. the chronicles of my love for him. coz this is the closest i could get to him. right now.

 

does he love me?

or during the time i thought he loved me

he only cared and thought he did.

 

whats on his mind now?

does he ever think of me?

remember me?

or even wish he was beside me?

 

god knows my soul will drift away soon.

 

im tired.

tired.

 

 

to be or not to be, that is the question,
whether this knobler in the mind.

i remember reciting this back when i was in high school. it's a famous soliloquy by Shakespeare... now, that's how i feel. to call or not to call him. although i wanted to settle things with him, i didn't want to him to get used to me running after him. I love him. i really do... and i've wondered countless times ive asked myself why. not that i dont want to love him. im guessing that there's no reason for us to fall in love. but loving for the long haul, IS A CHOICE. and now im beginning to wonder if i made the right choice, if i still want this relationship... its making me really sad... hurt. but what's new? i realized that relationships are really like that, but this is not the kind of relationship i want right now.

i want him to love me, and only me. not that im selfish, but methinks that loyalty and faithfulness to your partner is very important. i want him to stop hurting me, the way he's making me feel right now. so unloved, so uncared for. why can't he realize that?

im burdened with so many questions left unanswered. my fingers are itching to dial his number and call him... but i dont know if its worth my pride.